Saturday, December 28, 2013

Broken Future

When I left, why didn't you chase me? I am your other half. I needed you to want me -- to say that you needed me. Were you waiting for the right moment? Now the boys have two fathers. But it is you who fills my dreams. My biggest regret is not staying with you. I hated you. I needed you to stop me from being destructive. Why did you let me leave? The broken pieces of our family can never be repaired. I broke them. I was self-righteous in my insane loneliness. I would go back. I would wipe the tears and quit finding fault. I would savor you. I would savor the future we once had. But now the boys love two fathers.